I feel compelled to write this post as I read about the sad circumstances around Scott Hutchison from Frightened Rabbit and his body being found, it was really surfaced a lot of sadness with me, but also hope that it will encourage people feeling depressed to get help.
I have had 4 friends who have had depression and managed to take their own lives, the last one was just over a year ago and I met up with her about six weeks before she managed to succesfully take her own life, but that was after a live facebook message saying goodbye – when I met up with her for a coffee, I knew it was only a matter of time, she had made up her mind. I really feel sad about the fact that I know I’ve tried to help.
A lot of people see suicide as the easy way out, but actually, I think it takes guts, I couldn’t so something like that. I use to think it was the selfish way out, but what I have also realised is that people who manage to do it, are in their own bubble, they don’t care or see what else is going on, they just know they can’t continue on the present path and something kicks in.
After my sister took an overdose and lots of vodka, I remember thinking she was just looking for attention, but it was the way that she pushed everyone away, including her young sons, that made me realise that there was more to this, it was almost like they had gone to another place that we living people weren’t there. They had already gone.
This email is a little bit of random thoughts, but I just wonder if we ‘can’ help people in this situation or if we are on a hiding to nothing if they’ve already made their decision for whatever reason.
Sorry, just trying to work it out – I really feel for Scott Hutchison’s family and loved ones, I know you are searching for answers, but sometimes it’s not always that simple. I hope you all find peace.
Remember, it’s ok to not be ok, please do, if you are feeling rubbish speak to someone, don’t bottle it up or call 116 123 to speak to the Samaratins – They do the most amazing job.